Armor Up Part IV, Shoes

Other posts in this series can be read here, here, here and here.  

So far I've written about thinking of the armor of God as energy, the belt or girdle as connection to the lower dan tian, the fact that armor is just one letter away from amor or love, and the breastplate covering the heart, lungs and middle dan tian.

Now it's all about the shoes!

Shoes

                                              This picture appeared with this article.  

I have some friends (both males and females) whose closets resemble those of Imelda Marcos.  Shoes are fashion.  Shoes are personality.  Shoes are attitude.  Shoes make the ensemble.  Or so I'm told.  

Here's my take on shoes:  

Shoes that fit well and are comfortable (I have weird feet) are hard to find. Shoes that fit well and are comfortable are extremely expensive.  Shoes that fit well and are comfortable protect my feet.  Shoes that fit well and are comfortable actually affect the alignment (and therefore reduce the pain level) for my entire body.  

So basically, shoes are really important, and the kinds of shoes you wear matters.  

These are the shoes I currently own:

1.  Dansko slip-ons that I paid mega bucks for but have also worn almost every day for 3 years.  (Yes, they show it, but I haven't had the funds to buy new ones.)

2.  New Balance gym shoes.  Again, they cost an arm and a leg, but so worth it.  I wear them to workout or when I go on long walks.  

3.  Cheap black flats for tai chi.  I prefer a shoe for tai chi that feels like I'm not wearing a shoe. These took a long time to stretch out so they fit right.   

4.  Another pair of shoes (cheap) that I don't really like for either tai chi or working out, but I often keep them in the car as back-up.  They are better than working out in my socks.  

5.  Flip-flops (cheap) that are several years old that I only wear at the beach or lake.  I just can't do flip-flops.  I actually have trouble walking in them.  

6.   Organ shoes that were quite expensive when I bought them over 25 years ago.  There isn't a cheap substitute since organ shoes need a certain kind of heel and sole.  

7.  Extremely cute and extremely uncomfortable pumps that sit in my closet because I might wear them sometime (but I can't remember the last time I actually did.)

8.  A few pair of old shoes that I keep in case of emergencies.  

Shoes (or boots) provide protection/coverage for the feet, and ideally should be well-constructed, comfortable, and appropriate to the activity of the wearer.  And sometimes a good shoe will cost us.  

Feet

Cool stuff about the feet:

The alignment of your entire body is affected by how you balance your weight on your foot.  

In reflexology, it is believed that all points in the body are represented in the feet and therefore can be treated by working on the feet.  Similarly, in Traditional Chinese Medicine, it is believed that many meridians (pathways through which energy flows) either start or end in the feet.  It is through the Bubbling Well (a point on the bottom of the foot) that we draw earth energy up into the body and return negative energy or energy we don't need back to the earth to be recycled.

To walk is to move along a path.  Feet are how we move, how we progress.

Preparation

I actually love this word.  I love to prepare.  I love to organize.  I love the journey.  I love the process.  I love details.  

When I'm preparing for work, it involves creating lesson plans, handouts, charts, lists, schedules, etc.  It's about creating a body of information that I will then put to use when I work with my students.  In this case, preparation is doing.  

I used to think that preparing meant I had to set up everything so that there was no chance of anything going wrong.  I'm letting go of that.  I still want a back up plan for the back up plan, but I'm also learning that preparing means being flexible, having a plan, but also knowing how to deviate from it.  There is not just one path to the goal.  

When preparing to do tai chi, it is important to warm-up the body.  In the Tai Chi for Health programs there is a specific set of warm-ups that gets the body ready for the kind of movement that we will be doing.  But it doesn't have to be just a physical warm-up.  These exercises also prepare us for tai chi by helping us thinking about the tai chi principles.  I read a blog that referred to the warm-ups as principle practice.  Warm-ups also give us a chance to quiet the monkey mind, and get the mind and body functioning as one.  

Meditation (moving or still) is also preparation.  Here, preparation is comes through non-doing.  Through a simple repetitive pattern or stillness, we let go of the need to think and analyze and work. We learn to be.  

The preparation that comes through doing protects us because preparation provides pathways.  It gives us options.  It opens doors.  

The preparation that comes from stillness and meditation opens other doors like insight, awareness, and confidence.

Gospel

Gospel literally means "good news".  When we refer to the gospels of the Bible and apocrypha, we mean those books that tell the story of the life and mission of Christ.  I believe the mission of Christ to be primarily one of empathy and compassion.  At the heart of the atonement is the message of love.

Peace

The Merriam-Webster online dictionary included these definitions of peace:

: a state in which there is no war or fighting
: a state of tranquillity or quiet
: freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions
: harmony in personal relations

I love the paragraph that begins the wikipedia entry on peace.  

Peace is an occurrence of harmony characterized by lack of violence, conflict behaviors and the freedom from fear of violence. Commonly understood as the absence of hostility and retribution, peace also suggests sincere attempts at reconciliation, the existence of healthy or newly healed interpersonal or international relationships, prosperity in matters of social or economic welfare, the establishment of equality, and a working political order that serves the true interests of all.

Peace is about how we relate to others, but it is also that calm awareness that who we are as individuals and what we think and feel matters.  Peace comes when our actions are aligned with our beliefs.  Peace is healing, healing our own lives, healing others, healing that comes through Christ. I believe that at it's core, peace is just love.

"And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;"

In the middle of the war analogy sits the most precious truth, which is peace.  We are ready to share the good news of the ultimate harmony and healing.  Like a Wei Qi, field it is both our personal protection and how we interact with others.  

I was just reviewing the key words I discussed in this post and realized that this is far from the only time that "feet" and "gospel of peace" are linked in the scriptures. And yes, I remembered these scriptures because these phrases have been set to music.

How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
Romans 10:15

How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace; that bringeth good tidings of good, that publisheth salvation; that saith unto Zion, Thy God reigneth!
Isaiah 52:7

Behold upon the mountains the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace!
Nahum 1:15

15 And O how beautiful upon the mountains were their feet!
16 And again, how beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of those that are still publishing peace!
17 And again, how beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of those who shall hereafter publish peace, yea, from this time henceforth and forever!
18 And behold, I say unto you, this is not all. For O how beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that is the founder of peace, yea, even the Lord, who has redeemed his people; yea, him who has granted salvation unto his people;
Mosiah 15:16-18

And then shall they say: How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings unto them, that publisheth peace; that bringeth good tidings unto them of good, that publisheth salvation; that saith unto Zion: Thy God reigneth!
3 Ne 20:40

Now, what do we hear in the gospel which we have received? A voice of gladness! A voice of mercy from heaven; and a voice of truth out of the earth; glad tidings for the dead; a voice of gladness for the living and the dead; glad tidings of great joy. How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of those that bring glad tidings of good things, and that say unto Zion: Behold, thy God reigneth! As the dews of Carmel, so shall the knowledge of God descend upon them!
D&C 128:19

"How Beautiful Upon the Mountains"

"How Beautiful are the Feet" 

Peace itself can be both action and stillness, but the spreading of it requires our feet.  It requires moving forward, speaking, and doing.  

And again, my big take away from studying this piece of armor is this:

In the middle of the war analogy sits the most precious truth, which is peace.

Armor Up Part III, The Breastplate of Righteousness

Other posts in this series can be read here, here, and here.  

So far I've written about thinking of the armor of God as energy, the belt or girdle as connection to the lower dan tian, and the fact that armor is just one letter away from amor or love.

The breastplate of righteousness was supposed to be the easy part of the armor to write about, but the more I read and think, the deeper it gets.  This post might be really long as I explore every avenue, or it might be super short if I just decide to jump to the end.  Let's just see what happens.

Breastplate

The breastplate is designed to protect the torso, specifically the vital organs.  With the possible exception of the helmet, there is no more important piece of armor.  The heart and lungs are so necessary to our health and well-being that the body has it's own armor or cage (the ribs) to add protection for these organs.  Bullet proof vests and flak jackets are our contemporary versions of breastplates.  (Quick side note:  I didn't realize that flak jackets and bullet proof vests were not the same thing even though we now sometimes use them interchangeably.  Flak jackets were originally designed to protect from flying debris (shrapnel, casings, etc.) and bullet proof vests, which were developed later,  protected against projectiles.)

Breastplates can also have religious significance (in Exodus, we learn of the breastplate worn by the high priest) or indicate status.  

The Heart

In the West, we have come to associate hearts with love, compassion, and emotion.  But the energetic properties of the heart go even further.  In Chinese medicine, the heart is responsible for thinking and consciousness.  It is the place where Qi (energy) is transformed into Shen (spirit).  It is also the home of empathy.

This is one of those times when I think that imagining the armor of God as the Wei Qi field is more helpful than imagining it as a solid piece of metal.  How we think and feel should certainly be protected, but love, compassion, empathy and spirit can only grow through interaction with the world outside of ourselves.  Perhaps the breastplate of the high priests, with stones representing each tribe, the most important things for the high priest to consider, is more appropriate here than the armor of a soldier.

The Lungs

The heart pumps the oxygenated blood to all the cells of the body, but it is through the lungs that this most important element enters.  Through the lungs, we also expel waste products and what is no longer needed.  A failure in either of these physical roles can be fatal.  Again, there must be give and take, interaction with the world outside the body, interaction that could take place through a field of energy, but might not take place if our armor completely seals us off from the world.

The Middle Dan Tian

I love this description of the middle dan tian:

The Middle Dantian / House of the Human Realm Located in the solar plexus/center of the chest area, its field of energy also naturally extends into both palms. It is considered by the ancient Taoist, Tibetan Buddhist and other spiritual traditions to be the seat of one's soul and the root of the ego's sense of self and individuality. It's a place where raw earthly powers from below mix together with the detached sublime heavenly forces from above, creating a distinct kind of emotional energy usually only associated with human beings — it is the heart's energetic capacity to express feelings and show compassion.
"The Taoist Approach of the Three Dantians" By Te-Hsin Lo & Joseph Zeisky

When we put on the armor of God as energy, we are protecting and nourishing our souls and spiritual life.

Righteousness

This is definitely a loaded word, and I won't try to cover all of that today.  I'm just going to cover what I think it is and isn't in this particular situation.

What it's not

Righteousness is not outward actions or appearances.  

Righteousness is not a checklist.  

Righteousness (or the lack thereof) is not something that someone else can declare about you.  

What it is

Integrity.

Ethical and moral conduct.

Living open to God's direction through personal revelation.  

This quote (and introductory commentary) shared on Facebook by Illuminate Experience actually looks a lot like righteousness to me.  

What is important is that meditation be deep enough to see dharma's cosmic order and align one's conduct with it.
Do not accept it merely from tradition or even from the word of your teacher. Go and see for yourself through the practice of meditation.
To be established in dharma means not only seeing it face to face in enlightenment, but repeating the experience over and over until unity is more real than the passing show we know through the senses. Only then will one's actions never fall back into the tyranny of lower laws. 

"They are not following dharma who resort to violence to achieve their purpose. But those who lead others through non-violent means, knowing right and wrong, may be called guardians of the dharma.
One is not wise because he talks a good deal. They are wise who are patient, and free from hate and fear.
Dharma is not upheld by talking about it. Dharma is upheld by living in harmony with it, even if one is not learned.
Gray hair does not make an elder; one can grow old and still be immature. A true elder is truthful, virtuous, gentle, self-controlled, and pure in mind.
Neither pleasant words nor a pretty face can make beautiful a person who is jealous, selfish, or deceitful. Only those who have uprooted such impurities from the mind are fit to be called beautiful.
Shaving one's head cannot make a monk of one who is undisciplined, untruthful, and driven by selfish desires. He is a real monk who has extinguished all selfish desires, large and small.
Begging alms does not make a bhikshu; one must follow the dharma completely. He is a true bhikshu who is chaste and beyond the reach of good and evil, who passes through the world with detachment.
Observing silence cannot make a sage of one who is ignorant and immature. He is wise who, holding the scales, chooses the good and avoids the bad.
One is not noble who injures living creatures. They are noble who hurt no one.
Not by rituals and resolutions, nor by much learning, nor by celibacy, nor even by meditation can you find the supreme, immortal joy of nirvana until you have extinguished your self-will (ego)."
— Dhammapada, verse 256-272

How do I put on the breastplate of righteousness?

The breastplate of righteousness covers that area (heart, lungs, middle dan tian) where I am most vulnerable and where I must also be the most open.  There are qigong exercises to strengthen and balance these areas, and certainly that would be part of my armor.  On an energetic level, I can learn to both feel compassion and protect myself from the negative energies around me.  

I can also put on the breastplate of righteousness by examining my motivations.  Do I choose an action because someone said I should, or because I know it to be the right course?  Do I allow my true self to be present in every interaction, or do my thoughts, feelings, expressions, and actions reflect the people I am with at the time?  Do I obeys laws and commandments in fear and anxiety or are my actions rooted in compassion and empathy?

Next up:  Shoes

Armor vs. Amor (Armor Up, 2.5)

I'm a word nerd.  I love knowing how language evolved, so word origins fascinate me.  I also like to see connections that really have no relationship to the actual word origin.  I thought at-one-ment was a great way to think about atonement, even though it has no real connection to the word origin.

As I was working on my Armor Up series, I noticed that armor is just a small typo away from the Spanish word amor.  (Actually I was thinking of the British spelling armour and the French word amour, but the connection works either way.)

I thought of how I usually think about each of these words.

Armor--cold, hard, metallic, blocks or stops things, protects us.

Amor (Love)--warm, soft, open, vulnerable.

At this point in my life, I'd much rather live in Love, even with all it's vulnerability.  But is there a way to have both?  How do we meld these two?  Can I both protect myself and be vulnerable?   How do I build my protection out of Love?

These are the questions I'm exploring as I redesign and redefine my armor of God.  You can read the first post in the Armor Up series here.

Armor Up, Part II

To read part one of this blog, go here.  

As I started digging and writing, I realized that the first nine words of this scripture could have a lengthy blog post of their own.  Armor Up is now a series, so you don't have to commit a lot of time in one sitting.

Previously on Armor Up

My scripture study is most effective and enlightening when I pull in information and comparisons from other sources, especially those that at the surface don't seem very related.  Armor provides protection, but armoring up can also cut us off from relationships, creativity, insights, and truth.  If we view our armor as a Wei Qi field that interacts and communicates with energy fields around us, we are looking at something very different from the rigid, solid, armor that lets nothing touch us.  Now we move on to the specific pieces of armor, what they look like, and what they can do for us.  

"Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth"

Stand

Stand.  Not sit.  Not run or walk.  Stand.  

There is something in this word that implies grounding, finding our strength from being solidly centered in one place.  We sometimes call tai chi moving meditation.  There are also still forms of meditation that involve standing.  Through a point in the bottom of the foot called the bubbling well, we can draw up energy from the earth.  It is our connection to the earth and earth energy.  

The scriptures are fully of examples of standing in holy places.  Here's one:

But my disciples shall stand in holy places, and shall not be moved
Doctrine and Covenents 45:32

Loins Girt

Girdles or belts can represent many things.  The literal and historical usage of this from the times of the Bible was to take the belt that secured the tunic and use it to tie up a person's garments between the legs to make it easy to work or do battle.  I find it interesting that an item that I normally think of as constricting or holding something in, was actually used to create more freedom of movement.  Someone whose loins were girt was prepared and ready for action.  

If you want to explore more of the biblical use of girdles, this article is good.  

The belt or girdle as part of armor serves to protect the lower organs.  It also secures other pieces of armor.  A utility belt, as worn by a police officer or carpenter or Batman, serves as a storage place for items essential to the wearer that he or she may need to access quickly, easily, or frequently.  A belt might indicate rank or status.  In literature and mythology, we find belts that protect, belts that strengthen (Thor's belt doubled his strength), and belts that give some kind of power.  Belts may also represent purity and chastity.  

For Mormons, probably the most familiar usage of these terms comes from the beloved hymn, "Come, Come Ye Saints":

Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;

It's the refrain of "you can do it!" that the pioneers sang across the plains. We sing it to honor them and to remind ourselves that we are not alone.  I don't think it is by mere chance that the poet chose to link preparedness, courage, and trusting in God.  

I also like to think of girding my loins as gathering energy into my lower dan tian.  It's not an exact equivalent to loins as far as anatomy goes, but as the main storage place of energy in the body, I do think it serves that same purpose as the belt of helping us prepare and be strong.  

Truth

So we are in a position of strength (standing), prepared for what lies ahead (loins girt), but what is it that actually gives us that strength?  Truth.  

Talking about truth can get messy.  It's not as black and white as we would like it to be.  Not everything is either pure truth or pure falsehood. Philosophers have fought over the meaning of truth for centuries. Who am I to give the definitive answer?  

Here is what I believe.  There are some things that are objectively and absolutely true.  I believe that there are natural laws that exists outside of and independent of God's power.  He may know them well enough to work with them or around them, but even he is limited by them.  I believe that those things are truths.  

Buddhists believe in cause and effect (which is actually what karma is all about.)  Every action has a consequence.  Right thinking and right actions are those that lead us to a place of more compassion and less fear, hate, and attachment.  (Yes, I know that this is super simplified, but remember I'm trying to keep this short.) To me, that is truth.  

I think truth can also be very personal.  My own life experiences are my truth.  Recently it has become very important for me to share my story, to speak my truth, and to encourage others to do the same.  Telling our stories creates openness.  It allows the world to see who we really are and what has shaped us.  It creates vulnerability, yes, but it is only through vulnerability that we can connect to others.  While exposing our own vulnerability, speaking our truth opens up a place of safety for others.  

Whether truth is an eternal unchanging principle or our own experiences and personal convictions, the value and strength that come from truth is unlimited.  I've never been particularly fond of this hymn, but  today, it popped into my head and I realized how profoundly it addresses exactly what I want to say here.  I've underline my favorite parts.  

1. Oh say, what is truth? 'Tis the fairest gem
That the riches of worlds can produce,
And priceless the value of truth will be when
The proud monarch's costliest diadem
Is counted but dross and refuse.
2. Yes, say, what is truth? 'Tis the brightest prize
To which mortals or Gods can aspire.
Go search in the depths where it glittering lies,
Or ascend in pursuit to the loftiest skies:
'Tis an aim for the noblest desire.
3. The sceptre may fall from the despot's grasp
When with winds of stern justice he copes.
But the pillar of truth will endure to the last,
And its firm-rooted bulwarks outstand the rude blast
And the wreck of the fell tyrant's hopes.
4. Then say, what is truth? 'Tis the last and the first,
For the limits of time it steps o'er.
Tho the heavens depart and the earth's fountains burst,
Truth, the sum of existence, will weather the worst,
Eternal, unchanged, evermore.

Jesus declared

I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
John 14:6

George Herbert wrote these words (and Ralph Vaughan Williams set them to music)

Come, my Way, my Truth, my Life:
such a way as gives us breath,
such a truth as ends all strife,
such a life as killeth death. 

I love that.  "Such as truth as ends all strife."  Wow.  

I also found this nugget of wisdom from our friends at wikipdedia.

Thus, 'truth' involves both the quality of "faithfulness, fidelity, loyalty, sincerity, veracity",^[5] and that of "agreement with factor reality", in Anglo-Saxon expressed by sōþ (Modern English sooth)All Germanic languages besides English have introduced a terminological distinction between truth "fidelity" and truth "factuality".

Fascinating.  

Truth ends bitterness, anger, violence.  Truth is the only access to the Father.

I'm not exactly sure how to describe what I think about truth in terms of energy.  If all thought and all matter are actually energy, perhaps truth is the energy that is vibrating at the highest frequency.  Whatever it is, it holds an element of purity.  It gives us strength. 

"Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth"

The first thing I must do when I armor up is open up. I open myself to be receptive to the good in the world, that which restores and renews. Through stillness (or simple motions) I draw in the energy of the earth and the sky. I store that energy in my lower dan tian. I honor my own past and wrap the lessons of that past around me giving me strength as I look toward the future. I am prepared. I am ready to put on the rest of the armor and anchor it in this strength. 

 

Coming Soon: Armor Up Part III, The Breastplate of Righteousness

Armor Up, Part I

A quick review of the Gospel according to Jeannine

I'm a huge fan of Nephi's advice to make the scriptures relevant to our own lives. 

... for I did liken all scriptures unto us, that it might be for our profit and learning.
1 Nephi 19:23

Scripture study can be approached in many different ways. 

First:  It's important to understand the context in which that scripture was written and/or revealed.  Reading with only the perspective our own experiences limits what we can learn from that scripture.  Understanding the culture and language of the original text gives us the clearest picture of the original intent.  

Second: But, if we never ask, "How does this apply to me?  How is my life experience similar to what I see described here?" we miss out on a lot of personal revelation. 

Third:  We also need to explore what has been revealed in modern times about those scriptures.

Fourth:  Reading or listening to the views of others (leaders, teachers, scholars) gives us more perspective. 

Fifth:  And then you get the Gospel according to Jeannine (a variant of #4), which is basically coming at it from a completely different perspective.  I acknowledge and use the other options, but I don't limit myself to them.  

Here's an example:

28 ¶Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek andlowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30

This is one of my favorite scriptures.  I've always loved it, but a few years ago, I had a little epiphany.  "Light" in this context means not heavy, not something that will weigh us down.  When yoked with Christ, our own burdens are easier to bear.  I doubt many people would see anything else but that in that word.  But I'd been exploring light as energy, light as physical illumination, light as mental and spiritual enlightenment, and the idea that those are the same thing.  So when I read this verse again, light wasn't an adjective describing the burden, it was the noun equivalent of burden.  When I take his yoke upon me, I  am agreeing to take on his light, to become "A city that is set on an hill."

I "cannot be hid." (Matthew 5:14)

I am becoming a candlestick, giving "light unto all." (see Matthew 5:15)

You will probably never hear that taught in a Sunday School class, but it made this scripture far more powerful and meaningful to me.

Armor

So now that you understand how "the Gospel according to Jeannine" works, we move on to the real topic of this post:  Armor. 

I know it's weird, but even though I have a huge aversion to any thing violent, especially war, I also have a strange fascination with armor and weapons, specifically swords.  We can blame it on my love of Camelot and all things Arthurian.  (And then, because I'm such a nerd, of course I have to know what that armor evolved from and how armor has changed since then, so generally, it all fascinates me.) Where this fascination comes from is not as important as what I can learn from it.  

Armor is protection.  Armor gives us confidence.  Armor allows us to do things too dangerous to do unprotected.  Armor literally saves lives.

But…
(You knew it was coming.)

Even the best armor has it's drawbacks and limitations.  The lightest versions still add a burden of weight to the wearer.  Some armor limits movement or vision.  Armor sometimes gets in the way.  And we've yet to invent armor that can protect 100% of the body from every type of assault.

Yesterday I watched this wonderful Brené Brown video.  She researches shame, courage, and vulnerability.  In the contexts of creativity and relationships, when we armor up, we block ourselves off from things that will hurt us, but we also block ourselves off from the things that can give us the most joy and insight.  If you don't have time to watch the whole thing, just watch from 9:45 to 11:40.

When you armor up against vulnerability, you shut yourself off.

Read it again.  

When you armor up against vulnerability, you shut yourself off.

The Armor of God

Yay! We finally got through all the set up to the actual point of the blog!

I'm a pacifist.  Even in defense of who and what I love, I have trouble causing pain for anyone or anything.  It's so extreme that I don't kill spiders.  I catch them and then release them outside.  I believe that when you fight against something you give it power.  Going to battle emboldens the enemy.  I much prefer to promote what I love and believe than to try to destroy what I don't like.  So when we boldly sing, "Behold a Royal Army," the musician part of me loves the energy and the catchy tune, but the pacifist part of me cringes at the metaphor.  

I think that is one of the reasons I have never really appreciated Paul's exhortation to take on the whole armor of God.  Even with my fascination with armor, the war imagery was too strong and kept me from seeing what Paul was really talking about.  

I have a friend who is a Reiki Master and a Mormon.  I told her that I wanted to pick her brain sometime about energy work because I am very interested in pursuing that further in my own life.  In the course of that short conversation, she said something that totally clicked with me. She views putting on the armor of God from an energy perspective.  We didn't get a chance to discuss that more, but my brain took it and ran with it.

In qigong classes, I've learned about the Wei Qi field.  This is a good general explanation of the Wei Qi field from The Healing Qi Institute. I added the underlining for emphasis.

All living bodies generate an external field of energy called Wei Qi (pronounced "whey chee"), which translates as "protective energy." The definition of Wei Qi in Classical Chinese Medicine (CCM), Chinese Energetic Medicine or Medical Qigong is slightly different than that of Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM). In classical TCM texts, the Wei Qi field is seen to be limited to the surface of the body, circulating within the tendon and muscle tissues. In Medical Qigong, however, the Wei Qi field also includes the three external layers of the body's auric and subtle energy fields. This energy originates from each of the internal organs and radiates through the external tissues. There the Wei Qi forms an energy field that radiates from the entire physical body. This field of Qi protects the body from the invasion of external pathogens and communicates with, as well as interacts with, the surrounding universal and environmental energy fields.
Both internal and external pathogenic factors affect the structural formation of the Wei Qi. The internal factors include suppressed emotional influences (such as anger and grief from emotional traumas). The external factors include environmental influences when they are too severe or chronic, such as Cold, Damp, Heat or Wind, etc. Physical traumas also affect the Wei Qi field.
Any negative interchange affects the Wei Qi by literally creating holes within the matrix of the individual's external energetic fields. When left unattended, these holes leave the body vulnerable to penetration, and disease begins to take root in the body. Strong emotions, in the form of toxic energy, become trapped within the body's tissues when we hold back or do not integrate our feelings. These unprocessed emotions block the natural flow of Qi, thus creating stagnant pools of toxic energy within the body.
Medical Qigong consists of specific techniques that uses the knowledge of the body's internal and external energy fields to purge, tonify, and balance these energies. Medical Qigong therapy offers patients a safe and effective way to rid themselves of toxic pathogens and years of painful emotions that otherwise, can cause mental and physical illness. This therapy combines breathing techniques with movement, creative visualization, and spiritual intent to improve health, personal power, and control over one's own life.

The following thoughts and opinions (and those in Part II) are mine alone and do not necessarily represent the thoughts or beliefs of my church, my friend, or my qigong teachers.  They may have very different ideas about these things, but this is where my exploration took me.  

Everything is energy.  Thought.  Matter.  Spirit.  All.  

There is absolutely no reason that strengthening my Wei Qi field and strengthen my spiritual preparedness should not be one and the same. Plus, when I think of my armor as my Wei Qi field, it is no longer an impermeable barrier keeping me from love, connection, and creativity.  It interacts with energy fields around me.  

A Wei Qi field

• Protects.  
• Interacts.  
• Communicates.  

That's the kind of armor I'm interested in building.  

Part II of this blog will explore the details of my very non-Mormon approach to understanding the Armor of God.  

Growing Up

A person I very much respected once told me that I was childish.  She didn't say that I was acting in a childish manner.  She said I was childish.  It hurt, but it also confused me.

I had grown up hearing how mature I was, and I really was, both physical and mentally.  We joked that I had been born 40.  When I was 12, someone tried to sell me encyclopedias for my children.  I was the responsible one.  I was the one that could see the bigger picture.  I was the one that took care of everyone and everything.  How was any of that childish?

Years of therapy helped, but didn't really make the pain of that comment go away.  Then today, it finally hit me.  She had an impressive vocabulary and an intellect that was both dazzling and at times frightening.  But that day, she didn't have the words to say what she really meant in the way I needed to hear it.

Now that I understand, I'm a little sad that I can't tell her that I finally figured it out.  Childish was the only word she had to tell me that I was living far below my true potential and that I was not all I could be yet.  I'm finally growing up.  I'm emerging from my people pleaser, co-dependent shell.  For the first time, the world and I can finally see who I really am.  I can claim what I want and what I need and what is important to me.  I can share my truth with my head held high.

I think she'd be proud.